over a year since ive posted anything in my LJ. that really sucks. i guess its mostly because myspace has taken over the world. yeah anyway.... here's a nice review of the past year:
ive held on to old friends and made some new ones. ive kicked some habits but gained a few worse ones. ive been in a mental hospital. ive been in two out-patient treatment centers and im not sure if im ever gonna get better. i manage to keep my composure when im around my friends. it's when im alone when i get depressed and suicidal. im on lots of medication. im writing and drawing constantly, trying to find positive outlets for my depression and stress. anyways.... i'm bisexual still. im still a vegetarian. im still straight-edge. im becoming more and more addicted to anime, whether that's a good thing or not, idk. but anyway, life's been hard; especially the past couple of months. and im trying to make it by just living one day at a time. i really dont care how corny that sounds. but its true so w/e. i have to take this step by step, regaining optimism after everything that ive gone through. family issues. problems in school. no luck with love either. cutting. perging. suicidal ideation. im trying and trying. but sometimes i feel like im going in a big circle. are things ever going to get better for me? i love all my support systems out there. you guys have been great. but im not sure if in the future it will be enough.